10:52pm i mcg i say im gg out to release stress. guess what, 1:18am only then u mcg me ” where are u. ” , thats all. no call no nothing. do u even care for me? do u ? i love u sia thats why im being patience with u. but what if im the one doing this to u. what would u feel? you always say i scold you. but do i really scold u? do i? read back our texts and see. do i really scold u? tell u self and ask whether do u still love me or not.. if u are bored of me or not interested anymore, tell me. ill leave. really. not necause i dont love u but if i get treated like this, dont u think i feel very sad?
im not saying whats ur fault or why are u doing this to me. i respect you. but i just want you to know that i love you. when i talk to you nicely, its not because its my fault. no sarah no. u know why? bcus im mature enough to think whats best and whats not. u wanna ignore me and act like normal on twitter? go ahead. u dont wanna ask me whats wrong or try to think why im a bit upset with you, nvm. just to let you know, i may be here all the time being nice, being patience with you. im not giving up. but one day if my heart really crash, i wont be the same anymore. because i know myself what im doing is good. i never ignore u whenever we fight. i try solve things. i care for you. but do i get the same treatment back? no sarah i dont get. im not asking much. but treat me like how u want me to treat you. thats all i asked is that even hard? you think i dont feel sad? u think i dont cry behind u? you think i like getting like this from you? im suffering . alot. but i never gave up. bcus i want u to change. but i can never talk with you. its okay lah (: ni semua jodoh tuhan. just treat me like how u want to be treated like. thats all.
u always reply me ” yeryer ” im getting fed up sia. i ask for a hug with a sad face early morning u reply ” yeryer ” and say u wanna go out, u cannot contact me anymore and say byebye. wtf sia! if u dont want to bermanja lagi sudah takpe sia seriously. takpe.
i love u alot. really. never before i put this kind of effort in a relationship before. i dont wanna get hurt. i want us to lastlong. is it hard?
im so stress. i cant talk to u in anyway. nice or harsh, both cannot. i love u but why i get like this? am i crazy to get angry? am i an idiot to always sulk? am i? no. there must be something going on. its ok la really. for the sake of us, whatever happens next, i wont blame it on u. and if i feel unhappy, i wont say it cus i dont wanna risk fighting with u again. if u are angry, then what am i? what i feel? am i expecting too much? am i? forget it. what a lousy bf i am.i just feel like crying. i dont know what to do anymore. stuck at the moment. urgh im so stress. i also got perasaan. but how? but its ok, shall just breath in and out.. i wanna cry already. i dont wanna hurt u but i wanna tell u how i feel when i fee like im not the one ure interested at anymore. really. its common sense. if someone really loves u, they would always want to talk to u, text with u all… where did i go wrong? im so confuse seriously. i wanna cry